So, this week I, as I’m sure others did , I received an email regarding the Paycheck Protection Program set in place due to Covid 19. I was a bit surprised to read that, even though I qualified and was listed as “eligible”, my husband and I weren’t going to receive funding despite what a “success” the program was… you see there just isn’t enough funds to go around. This left me as a small business owner and taxpaying citizen feeling, well, second class. We were down to our last of funds – enough for groceries. I have been furiously applying for anything to get us through, but still, we are not on “the list”. Like some sort of swanky night club, yet this is designation of country, and it means the difference of feeding my family or not. So yeah, not like an “A-list”.
No finger pointing here, just fact.
Point being, there is no “class scale” for God. You are either for Him, or not. You are either His child, or not. You are either bearing fruit, or not. You are either doing as He commanded, or not.
But the beauty in the “or not” is that you can come to Him. He doesn’t have some ridiculous application process that changes at whim; He is available. He is always there. There to hear you, hold you, forgive you, and mold you. The cry of “Abba Father” is never met with silence. The tears of repentance are never gone without being counted. The joy of mercy is never without song. And the cry for new, is never gone unchanged.
Today, seek Him. Know Him. Lean on Him. He will not disappoint!
I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to me and heard my cry for help. He brought me up from a desolate[a] pit, out of the muddy clay, and set my feet on a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord. How happy is the man who has put his trust in the Lord and has not turned to the proud or to those who run after lies! Lord my God, You have done many things—Your wonderful works and Your plans for us; none can compare with You. If I were to report and speak of them, they are more than can be told. You do not delight in sacrifice and offering; You open my ears to listen. You do not ask for a whole burnt offering or a sin offering. Then I said, “See, I have come; it is written about me in the volume of the scroll. I delight to do Your will, my God; Your instruction lives within me.” I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly; see, I do not keep my mouth closed— as You know, Lord. I did not hide Your righteousness in my heart; I spoke about Your faithfulness and salvation; I did not conceal Your constant love and truth from the great assembly. Lord, do not withhold Your compassion from me; Your constant love and truth will always guard me. For troubles without number have surrounded me; my sins have overtaken me; I am unable to see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my courage leaves me. Lord, be pleased to deliver me; hurry to help me, Lord. Let those who seek to take my life be disgraced and confounded. Let those who wish me harm be driven back and humiliated. Let those who say to me, “Aha, aha!” be horrified because of their shame. Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; let those who love Your salvation continually say, “The Lord is great!” I am afflicted and needy; the Lord thinks of me. You are my helper and my deliverer; my God, do not delay.
Routine? Totally gone. Bedtimes? Null and void. Cleaning? Ahhhh, yes. All the reasons for weekly cleaning such as a friend, family member, or the ultra-serious mother in law visit – no longer an issue. Thanks, Covid 19. But my toilet is dirty. And because I’m not on my usual routine, I didn’t even realize how bad it was, until I saw how bad it was.
This got me thinking (and cleaning!) about what else I had become lazy about. I let the weekly bible study that I was participating in slip. I stopped diligently reading my verse of the day sent by You Version. I even stopped listening to worship music (not in the car anymore, so its not default behavior). Actually, I can’t remember the last time I truly sang to my Lord and Savior. I have been diligent in prayer… that has become much more of a regular habit and dependence. But one area of faithfulness does not account for slacking in the others.
Proverbs 20:6 – “Many a man proclaims his own loyalty, But who can find a trustworthy (faithful) man?”
Matthew 25:21 – “His lord said to him, Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.”
Luke 16:10 – “He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much.”
But what is faithful?
1. loyal, constant, and steadfast.
2. true to the facts or the original.
According to the internet, this is a definition. But what are the facts? Not just prayer. The facts aren’t only in the conversation. The facts are in His Word. In truth. The original is in the bible. Are we focused on that? I haven’t been. So, what now? Well, if I am only speaking something through breath but not through action… I may as well be whistling a happy tune as the ship goes down (or violining, aka “Titanic”).
1 Cor. 13:1, while not entirely in context here, does express support of the theory. If all I am doing is blowing hot air at God as I declare my love, what is really happening? Love is in the doing. The action. My pastor used to say for demonstration, “If a man said, ‘I told you once I loved you… why isn’t that enough’ ” again, slightly out of context, yet still relevant. How are we expressing our love/ faithfulness to God? In the lack of certain physical accountabilities, have you slacked? Because I know I have. And there is no shame in the knowing… just do something different! Shame is something that the enemy wants to keep you in… make you live there. Shame is not from our Lord. Our Lord says, "Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." (Matt. 11:28-30)
Rest- ease of burden? No shame in that. I can absolutely accept those terms. However, what will I do because of the terms? I’m not going to whistle or play violin on the deck of the ship that we all know sinks…. So perhaps I need to refocus my efforts; or call it priorities. God, family, then others. Don’t misplace where the placement should be.
He is always faithful. But the question is, what am I doing?
what is "spark"?
Its a small thing - like the flash on a spark plug that hopefully ignites something bigger to propel you forward.
Niki is a wife and mother of 2 children. She lives in Charlotte, NC where she enjoys everyday moments that ignite her relationship with our Lord and Savior.